So what's up everyone on DA? Happy new year to you. I haven't been around lately so I wanted to know how all your holidays were and how 2011 is treating you. Good? Oh that's wonderful. Me? Oh fan-fucking-tastic. Please note the sarcasm there because I know it's hard to tell via the interwebs. Well where should I start?
My holidays sucked major ass. I became ill on Christmas Eve so for both days, I stayed home with the dogs and slept all day while my parents and sister went to see the family in NY to open their presents and what not. I continued being sick after that. I was still sick during New years- both days. What did I do I New Years? Well I have no idea on the count that new years is a blur to me. So that was the beginning on my 2011.
Alas it gets better. Something happened at work with me, something I will not get into too much detail on the count that it's a lengthy amount of bullshit to read but long story short- I undercharged a customer, got in trouble, came home and got a phone call from my boss telling me that I'm fired, and then the truth of how my boss actually felt about me and a whole bunch of other bullshit she decided to pile on top of me all at once which by the way I had no idea about half the stuff she was telling me on the fact she never mentioned it to me, happened. And thus, I am left with no job. Which leads me to having to have to find another job, once again. -sigh- I hate looking for a job on the count that for one thing, they never give you a clear answer as to whether or not they are hiring. That leads me to having to call and leave a message or sent an application online which I have no idea if they get or not, and make me wait. If I don't hear back from them soon, than that makes me have to call them back and I feel as though I'm sounding to be annoying and blah blah blah. A whole lot of shit I just don't want to deal with right now. I did, however, sent in an application to PetSmart to be a bather- because this manager lady said that I should do that first and if I bathe a number of set amount of dogs, they'll send me to grooming school where I will actually learn opposed to what I was doing at my other job, so I can be a groomer then. There was also another grooming salon that a friend of mine brings her pets to and I talked to the owner of the store who told me to leave a message at her other shop and said she would call me back, yet I am still waiting. Until then, I guess this means I'm still going to have to look around in the meantime.
And now here's some news about Chloe. So one morning my mom let Chloe out to do her business. Luckily the ground was covered with the mountains of snow that we have; this helped my mom see that there was blood in Chloe's pee. Now, Chloe is a 10 year old old lady dog and is spayed so obviously, it has nothing to do with her getting her "you know what." Seeing the blood caused for alarm so my mom and dad took Chloe to the vet on Monday. The vet gave us antibiotics in the meantime and told us to watch her and make sure that there was no more blood when she went to the bathroom. The vet said that Chloe could possibly have bladder stones. Of course, Chloe hasn't been feeling her best. She's been very mopey and makes a groaning noise a-lot, as though she were in pain. She's also doing this funny thing when she eats that like she keeps her head down so she ends up chocking on her food. I don't know. She's acting weird. Seeing how she seemed to get a little worse, my mom made another appointment to see the vet. So today, my mom and dad brought Chloe back to the vet and took an x-ray of her bladder. Unfortunately, they couldn't see what was going on because Chloe was all backed up, they couldn't see anything. This means, Chloe has to so in for a sonogram tomorrow. How wonderful. The poor dog xD. I'll keep you posted if anyone cares.
Update 02/03/11: So as I mentioned yesterday, today was the day when Chloe was going to get her sonogram. So my mom dropped her off at the vets at 8:30am and basically stayed there {chloe not my mom} the entire day until my parents picked her up at like 7pm. Probably the worst thing ever could have happened to me is happening right now. Like honestly, I feel as though this is all a dream like it's not real. Like how could this happen? Why now? why so young? Okay rewind a bit. I don't remember if I mentioned this but Chloe has a bunch of lumps on her body that when she first got a sonogram, turned out they were not cancerous and nothing to worry about but we had to keep an eye out to see if they have gotten bigger. When the sonogram result's of today have confirmed that each bump has indeed gotten bigger. Also, it also showed that one of the lumps as gotten so big that it's covered half of her liver. My parents asked the vet what can be done and there are two options: 1) Chloe can under go surgery to, I guess, remove the masses or 2) We let Chloe get comfortable and basically allow to live her life until it's time. If she gets worse, we'll have to put her to sleep. My mom doesn't want to put Chloe through surgery because of her age she doesn't want to stress her out- plus the cost of it alone is a lot. So it looks like we have no choice but to go with option two. So basically, at this moment, Chloe is dying. My mom asked the vet how long she thought chloe had left and the vet had no answer. The vet also mentioned that the lumps could possible pop and bleed inside of Chloe. My mom asked how would we know if that were to happen and the vet said, Chloe pretty much collapse. When I heard the news, of course, I started crying. I am feeling like a wreak right now.
Update 02/08/2011 Things aren't looking up for Chloe. Lately, she has been snoring a lot, like it sounds like she's having a hard time breathing, and whenever she eats her food, she always seems to be chocking. Last night, after Chloe took her breaks in between eating her meal, she ended up throwing up twice. We were thinking that since Chloe likes to eat snow, perhaps she cut herself while eating ice and that was what is causing her to have a hard time eating- since it would be hurting her and all. We went even as far as cooking ground meat and rice together and adding it into her kibble so it could help her eat better; of course since Chloe had to have it, Coconut did to xD. My mom said if she was getting worse, we'll take her to the vet. Well, that's what happened. Today my parents took her to the vet and once again had to drop her off. Ends up, there is a large mass in her throat that is causing her to have a hard time eating and is making her act the way she is. The vet said that this lump is maybe cancerous but they are going to have another vet check her out. The only way to fix it, so far, is by surgery but with all the recent vet trips we have taken and saving up for other things, that is out of the question. -sigh- I don't know what's going to happen but I'm afraid. Yes, I know that dogs don't live forever but once you've grown attached to them and since I've had her since she was a puppy, sometimes it's hard letting go. And just the idea alone is making me depressed.
So how is school? Good? That's great. Me? Ha dude I'm not in school anymore. That's right. I am currently not in school. Why? Well I wanted to take the semester off to focus on grooming. But seeing how I no longer have a job and have no school, I'm just being a lazy ass at home. To be honest with you, I really don't want to go back anyway. I know "Oh but you made it through 3 semesters. Why not finish your last one and be done with it?" Well, for one thing I'm getting sick and tired of school. The last semester I had, I was failing pretty much all of my classes due to sheer laziness and not caring; I actually had to drop my Biology class but I was sucking pretty bad in that class. So I was down to only three classes by then and out of those three, I only passed one just by the skin of my teeth. And it wasn't the class I am majoring in. Plus, I heard that I was short a few credits so I would have to take another math class on top of retaking a Biology class {and I suppose in this case know a speech and photography class} so I was all like "Fuck this shit. Seriously." Honestly, I'm about to throw in the towel for good. If I want to go back to college, I will on my own time. But for now, I have no intentions on going back.
Hm, what else. Random blob: I've been having the sudden urge to want to get a tattoo- like really bad. Ever get that feeling? Like you're thinking about something that you want and you want it really bad and like feel like just jumping into your car and going out to get it? Well yeah that's what I feel like doing. Ever since my cousin got his second tattoo and we were talking about tats, me wanting to get one has gotten worse lol. He was like "Don't you want one?" And I was all like "Yeah. of course I do but I have no idea what I would want" And this is true. I was thinking about it the other day and I came up with something. I was thinking of getting a tattoo on the back of my leg- probably the right- that's like the shape of NJ and has a banner around it that says "It's a Jersey Thing" Now why the fuck would I choose it to be a NJ tattoo and on my leg? I have no idea. That was the first place that popped into my head. Thinking about it now, would that be a stupid tattoo? Be honest with me. Lol. Especially for it being my first. Like I guess it would be cool if I got it later on- or not at all. Then again, I was thinking about it and I'm thinking of maybe getting like paw prints or something like that. I don't know. I also have another idea of getting the lyrics "Though you swear that you are true, I'd still pick my friends over you" or maybe simply "My friends over you" somewhere on my body after like one my most favorite songs; of course it wouldn't just be the words but some sort of design would have to be incorporated with it. And I was also thinking of getting a dolphin because honestly, that was always one of the things I would get as my first tattoo. -shrug- I just want to get something I am 150% sure I want to get and won't regret getting after it's done.
Hm,, and that's all I can think of right know.
Thanks for reading.